Everything and Nothing, All at Once
So a couple posts ago, I talked about how the spring semester is just my struggle semester when it comes to school. I totally lack motivation and my procrastination levels go through the roof. I think the call of summer is just too strong?
However, the thing I noticed in the last few weeks when I haven't been posting here (my bad!) is that while my lack of motivation for school comes in, my motivation and drive to do other things soars.
There's so much I want to do and change and focus on. It's like I want to do everything and nothing at the same time. If anyone figures out how to make that possible, let a girl know!
The last few months, I've been binging on podcasts. I've only listened to three, but since they have more than 50 episodes each, it's just been non-stop. It's perfect to listen to during my 30-40 minute commute to campus, or when I'm writing. And while I've been obsessing over them, I've been giving some serious consideration to starting my own.
Which that in itself is like a huge step for me. Because a) I hate the sound of my voice (don't we all?) and b) I'm pretty shy. All reasons why my major is print journalism and not broadcast. Although, for my social media class we had the option to watch a livestream or do one of our own. So I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and did an instagram live. I thought I'd for sure feel awkward and completely uncomfortable and even though only a few people showed up, I was way m ore relaxed than I expected. So relaxed I was live for an hour. Not saying it wasn't a total boring hour for the people that watched, but I was actually proud of myself for just doing it in the first place.
Anyway, I'll be putting "starting my own podcast" into the "Super Serious Consideration" category.
Last week I took photos for the Prosper Press News (where I freelance) at the Prosper High School baseball and softball tournaments. (Almost got hit by a foul ball twice and got a super weird sunburn on my arm.) Then Sunday, spent the entire day makinga website to showcase my photography. Totally unplanned, but completely proud of my work.
Another thing I've been working on, and thing I've mentioned here before on multiple occasions, changing up this blog. I've been wanting to give it a new look for a while now (understatement!) and a new name. The name part has been the struggle for about a year because nothing is clicking for me. I do love the current name but I'm over the Peplums part... explaining what that is, it's just trendy and I'm over it. I want a name that'll last and that I love... and there's where my indecisiveness gets me.
Anyway... that's where I'm at right now. Doing a lot even though it simultaneously feels like I'm doing nothing. Sometimes I just need to talk... write... everything out. Plus, I was long overdue for a post so I just sat down and typed away and here we are and that's all I got for now!
